Too young or too old.
posted on Thursday, October 24, 2013 @ 8:44 PM | permalink
Up till this age, I still don't know what I really want. There's nothing I'm great at. There's nothing I could do well. There's no goal and I've been living my life aimlessly. It's sucks pretty badly. Seriously envy people who knows what they want to be at young age. They're all working towards their goals and as for me..........I'm pretty much screwing my life. Ohwell. "My Ambition" had been a hit topic for composition writing during the young days. And I've been trying soooooooo damn hard to write such topic and always blabbering rubbish in composition. But I never once sit still and think hard about what I really want. Probably just hoping for that compo to complete by itself. Yes, I'm one lazy ass. Then again, people don't even believe that I'm 19 already. But when I was looking into the mirror, I really felt that I looked so much older which I dislike alot and I really don't want to look any older anymore. I really have no idea why people can never guess my age correctly. Maybe with the fact that I'm short? Can I not grow any older anymore.................. I can't really describe how I am actually feeling. Just felt like time is scary. It just disappears within seconds and we don't get to hold on to it much. Well, I need to get out of my comfort zone and move on already. Are you feeling what I'm feeling too? Or am I the weird one that thinks 20 is old? Hahahahaha. Labels: diary, feelings, personal |