Too young or too old.
posted on Thursday, October 24, 2013 @ 8:44 PM | permalink
Up till this age, I still don't know what I really want. There's nothing I'm great at. There's nothing I could do well. There's no goal and I've been living my life aimlessly. It's sucks pretty badly. Seriously envy people who knows what they want to be at young age. They're all working towards their goals and as for me..........I'm pretty much screwing my life. Ohwell. "My Ambition" had been a hit topic for composition writing during the young days. And I've been trying soooooooo damn hard to write such topic and always blabbering rubbish in composition. But I never once sit still and think hard about what I really want. Probably just hoping for that compo to complete by itself. Yes, I'm one lazy ass. Then again, people don't even believe that I'm 19 already. But when I was looking into the mirror, I really felt that I looked so much older which I dislike alot and I really don't want to look any older anymore. I really have no idea why people can never guess my age correctly. Maybe with the fact that I'm short? Can I not grow any older anymore.................. I can't really describe how I am actually feeling. Just felt like time is scary. It just disappears within seconds and we don't get to hold on to it much. Well, I need to get out of my comfort zone and move on already. Are you feeling what I'm feeling too? Or am I the weird one that thinks 20 is old? Hahahahaha. Labels: diary, feelings, personal 1. Starting up
posted on Wednesday, October 23, 2013 @ 1:05 AM | permalink
I started blogging when everyone else had a blog too. After awhile, one by one their blog dies. So does mine. But I revive mine again and again.There are times where I really don't wanna blog anymore because I've got no life therefore nothing to blog about. Also, I am not a person that opens up easily moreover on my blog to share with everybody. Therefore really limited stuff to blog about and this is why I've no readers at all. Hahaha But it doesn't matter to me. I just need a space to keep my memories, a place where I can share my sorrows and happiness. A place where I go to when I'm all alone. Just a place that belongs to me. I'm not that popular girl that has lots of friends. I'm an Introvert and really anti-social. I don't get to have listening ears whenever I need and blogging is just another ear for me and I really appreciate blogging. I know there are people who reads my blog once in a blue moon and even had people saying they enjoy reading my blog and it's really a great deal for me hor! Even though I really don't know what's there to read la. Hahaha. I've blog from my daily life, like school lesson and dinner or whatsoever. Okay, very boring. After leaving school life, I started ranting alottttttttttttt. And I always feel stupid whenever I read back my past post and I had to delete it. HAHAHA So yup, here I am again with my new blog. You should have known me for Yuting and not Pamela. Refer to the about tab if you are free and want to read about it. I hope I wouldn't have to delete posts anymore. Just let me be clever when I'm blogging please. I'm going to learn how to appreciate people around me so look forward to posts that are filled with loved this time round! Okay, See you people again! |